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Healing is messy as FUCK, Thankfully there's cannabis

I created this piece through love, heartache, suffering, traumas, inner demons, healing, and self inspiration.

When I got out of the military, I was jobless, suicidal, depressed, lonely and drowning myself in alcohol and prescription pills. I was a shell of myself. I coped by drinking and self destruction and flirting with death here and there. I was becoming someone I didn't want to be, feeling and looking horrible. I found a healthier way to cope that didn't involve sex, alcohol, pills, and putting myself at risk only to feel alive again. This painting took about 6 months to create (started June 2021 and finished Nov 2021), lots of stepping away from it due to life and extreme emotions and resurfacing of difficult memories, etc. Now I look at this painting and see reflections of myself of where I've been and where I am and where I don't want to be again. Healing is messy as fuck.

Using natural medicine has helped me open my mind and my heart to things I've never thought possible. If certain health organizations took better care of their people, there would be less casualties and tragedies and more people living a quality of life that every living being deserves. If we live in a free country then we should have the freedom to choose natural remedies instead of prescription pills with pages of potential side effects that can potentially make us more sick or cause death.

I don't know what the future holds for me, but I just wanted to share this piece with everyone in hopes to spread awareness.

I want to thank my love @mac_a_hippie_ish_human for loving me, believing in me, and being there for me

Denise Larracuenta

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